Liliana Vess (
deathsmajesty) wrote2023-10-24 01:11 pm
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Waffle House, Tuesday Morning
"Why won't they just leave?" Liliana demanded of the alien beside her as they hunkered down in a booth, trying to subtly keep an eye on the TV-headed creeps milling about outside the restaurant. They seemed loathe to actually come into the restaurant, quite likely due to the staff's absolute unwillingness to tolerate nonsense, but they weren't leaving, either. Just standing there, holding up various reward offers towards the glass like that might entice either person to come out.
Of all the places Liliana had intended to visit today, this Waffle Hut wasn't one of them, and of all the people she intended to see, Stark was most definitely not one, either. But they'd both ended up getting menaced by an ever-growing crowd of TV heads and had ducked into the one place that had offered sanctuary and, well...now here they were. Sharing a sticky booth, getting stared at by the crowd outside and utterly ignored by the staff within.
[For said glowy alien, please]
Of all the places Liliana had intended to visit today, this Waffle Hut wasn't one of them, and of all the people she intended to see, Stark was most definitely not one, either. But they'd both ended up getting menaced by an ever-growing crowd of TV heads and had ducked into the one place that had offered sanctuary and, well...now here they were. Sharing a sticky booth, getting stared at by the crowd outside and utterly ignored by the staff within.
[For said glowy alien, please]
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"He--" She stumbled over her words. "I--."
This time, she didn't spill her coffee, just clutched at it with trembling hands. Nor did she look at him, feeling vulnerable and exposed, almost naked. "I do not wish to speak of it."
Honestly, it was all she could do not to crawl across the table and drag the memory from his head with clawed fingers. She wasn't as adept at lethemancy as she was with other aspects of necromancy, but she was good enough to make sure it stuck. But she didn't understand Stark, wasn't sure if she could make it happen.
For the first time in awhile, she missed Jace. Missed Jace terribly.
It was fine. He could keep it. He didn't know what he'd seen. Who he'd seen. Didn't know the details, couldn't understand. Couldn't possibly understand the depths of her fear and guilt and shame.
Join me, Lili. All the torment of the Void will be ours to share forever."
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"Then don't speak," he said, still curling in on himself as much as possible. "But the other one... he was more frightening. He didn't do anything but he was worse. And then he was gone and you were... pulling. At me."
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Liliana tried to figure out which of her memories could be worse than that.
...Actually, without the emotional tenor that went along with what had happened to Josu, there were a lot of memories that could be classified as 'worse' than that, truth be told.
"Worse how? What did this one look like?"
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Who had been quietly and thoroughly terrifying
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It didn't matter that Liliana had lifelinked Stark. Didn't matter that she absolutely would have drained him if Gladio hadn't intervened. The Raven Man had no right to touch him. To be in her head at all!
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Stark shook his head, still making himself as small as possible.
"He just talked. I don't want meet him again. Ever. He's... frightening."
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She looked up at Stark, brow furrowing. "What did he say to you?"
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"And that you'd heal yourself if you stopped being 'squeamish.' Which you did."
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Neither thing Stark said was new or surprising, but that didn't mean that it didn't make Liliana shiver hearing him say it. Keep me out of your plans, Raven Man, I want none of them.
She was pretty sure the faint echo of his laugh was just her mind playing tricks on her. Pretty sure.
"I wasn't going to let you drag me into the void without fighting tooth and nail," she said crisply. "I will not go gentle into that good night nor any other."
Oh no. She would rage, rage against the dying of the light.
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Stark was going to need so many hashbrowns to recover from this conversation.
"I wasn't trying to do any harm. I wasn't forcing anything. You were dying and I knew you were dying and I tried to help you. I'm not wrong about knowing someone is dying!"
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Stark sighed, frustrated.
"I wasn't trying to harm you. I wouldn't do that. And it can be a kindness. It's meant to be! You chose to...whatever that was you did. To me."
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Her haughty expression turned to something else before being wiped free of all emotion. "Do you honestly think that was the first time someone saw I was injured and vulnerable and tried to finish the job?"
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You know, before she tried to eat him.
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She glared at him. "I had just fought off a demon, had nearly bled out, and was dying on a living room floor. I was vulnerable in a way I haven't been in sixty years - and do you know what happened the last time I was in almost that exact same position? Someone tried to kill me. A perfect stranger, a healer, someone I had begged for help. Yes, I harvested that energy that was going towards trying to convince me to let go and used to to heal myself because I was fighting for my very life."
Her violet eyes blazed with light. "You want to tell me it was all a misunderstanding, that yes, your help was still going to end with me dead in the floor, but in a nice way, but that you were a passive actor in what happened after you opened the door? Fine. I will even believe you. But take thirty seconds to think about what happened from the point of view of the woman whose formative memory was getting strangled by--"
Oh look! Liliana was just gonna shut the fuck up real fast.
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"Fine," she said softly. "I believe you. All right? I believe you."
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Of course, if he hadn't shown up that might have led to a very different outcome for one of the occupants of the apartment. He was a convenient energy source at times.
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Except we all know that Ignis would have insisted, which might have been for the best considering how good Gladio was at yanking Liliana off people she was harvesting...But still, a vastly different and more unpleasant outcome for sure. Stark had been a guilt-free juice box!"He is waiting for me," she said, unaware she was repeating what the Raven Man had said, "in the void. j--The one you're calling the shadow man. I've always wondered, but now I know for certain." And that knowledge hurt, in a way she couldn't hide.
She was so very tired.
"I... understand," she said finally. "You didn't know. You couldn't know. Just like I didn't and couldn't know what you were not what was attacking me." Another pause. "Are you still injured?"
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Sure, he still had the occasional nightmare but it was just the year for that sort of thing for him. "I've, I've had worse things happen. I've survived. And someone once did something...not the same. But it felt similar, after."
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Liliana nodded. "Had you still been feeling the ill-effects, I wouldn't have gotten you a health potion or a salve or something," she said, a little awkwardly. "If you'd like, I still can. To make up for what happened."
Was she apologizing? No. Absolutely not. Or, at least, she hadn't yet stooped to offering him an insincere apology. But trying to make it right another way? That she was willing to do.
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That was just his life, wasn't it?
"As I said, someone else did something similar, once. To save someone else."
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"It hurt, it's over," Liliana agreed with a nod. "That seems the best way to look at it. Mistakes were made that will not be made again."
A hesitation. "I am...sorry. That you experienced...that. Memory. Of mine."
She took no responsibility for it, it wasn't like she invited you into her head, Stark, but she knew how bad that memory was, at least. And could express sympathy that he now shared some small part of it.
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"I've seen other terrible memories," he said softly. "And I have plenty of my own. I'm sorry you lived it."
And that she had those two men lurking, somewhere, waiting for her.
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Ugh, he was just the worst.
She shrugged, uncomfortable with the topic. "It hurt, it's over," she said, like it was that simple. Like it wasn't a weight she'd carried for two hundred years and would carry for thousands more. Like she couldn't trace the woman she was now back to that exact moment precisely.
Like the Raven Man hadn't been there, in the shadows, watching and pulling the strings.
"To make sure it is crystal clear, I have no intention to harm you further," she added, in case the reassurance was necessary.
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